Christmas Wishes

well, it is that time of year. The Christmas celebrations and chocolate and movies and family time. This year I am family-ing it up with Andi and her brood of little men. They have been sick since last week, diarrhea is the latest symptom. And even though they aren't feeling all that great they are still hilarious and I enjoy them alot.
Everyday I get asked how many presents I bought for them and can we open them now??
The first time Korban (2) asked me if he needed to sing a song before he could open his christmas presents....as in happy birthday...so I told him before he opens his christmas gifts maybe he can sing away in a manger...which he then proceeded to do with great speed...and when he finished looked very hopefully towards me and the stack of presents....cute!!! but I'm tough, I told him not until Christmas. He was quite disappointed to say the least.
Anyway, went to visit a resturaunt where I used to work and of course had to bring up the fact that yes, I came home early and no I am not going to take my midwifery exam and bla bla bla bla...I am so sick of this conversation already...and then my old boss was like, "Well, you look great at least...I mean at least you don't look like you are disheartened with life"...I think she meant that by blow-drying my hair and putting make-up on I had somehow redeemed my present situation.
was I consoled? Seriously!
but it was unique...
I hadn't heard that 'encouragement' before; I mean i have heard the 'God works in mysterious ways', the 'Didn't the experience made your life richer', the 'now you are more prepared to go overseas with what to expect if everything goes wrong...' etc....
and honestly, I think that having heard the 'at least you aren't a whale' tidbit...
I can honestly say that i don't think i will ever tell somebody who's personal life is in flux that at least they still know how to put on make-up...seriously people...
so i guess this Christmas, i am trying not to dwell on the fact that life just doesn't turn out the way you wish it too. I am more focusing on the God works in mysterious ways part of life and realizing that every moment is special even if it involves you falling flat on your face in front of everyone you know and love...cause sometimes thats when you know that they truly do actually luv you.
and who knows yesterdays failures could be tomorrows surprises...
merry christmas all...
thanks for the luvin....

in a nut shell

so this week started by cleaning me out...
and then i got all the good shifts at work because i confronted my boss...so now I know I need to confront everyone in my life to get what i want...seriously...I am almost believing in the 'confrontation solves all problems' theory...
and I just read that britney spears sister...who is 16....is pregnant.
my thoughts on this...poor little girl.
Question: If we would have known then what we know now....would we still buy Hit me Baby One More Time? Or would we link arms and sing 'tough luv is not buying your cd...it's hurts you now but just wait and see'...
tonight was supper at the grandies....
grandma had me over and then we watched a christmas choir program...it was really good. Grandma thought they were singing silent night in a different language, and that was funny. Cause they were singing in english...just much to 'silently'. Next time I go over we are going to watch Scrooge...so classic!
On Monday the tree fell over...kinda funny, cause we actually only put it up on monday...apparently it fell of the van en route to the hosue as well...I think we picked a winner. Since then we have been handling it more gently.
Today I missed being in the birth room. I relived my last birth as I made subs at lunch...how did my life go from there to here???? So I said a little prayer for Mica Grace today. She is in an orphanage attached to the birth home I worked at. She is about 4 months old now.

will all the sick people pleas go back to bed!

this week has been full of new and slightly alarming developments in my life...
first...I found out that if you get me mad enough i can be quite confrontational. Work at Subway has been a gong show...mostly the owners are never there and have decided not to hire a manager so like in judges...each man does what is right in his own eyes....
and can I just say that what is right in some people's eyes is completely irresponsible.
So anyway i was gearing up for the big confrontation where I was going to tell my boss things need to change and I am probably going to quit...yes i was that sick of high school drama.
Anyway, i did ask him to talk with me and I did confront him on some serious issues and then by the end of the conversation he was like, "I appreciate people who take responsibility and come talk to me" and he also told me he would give me the shifts I wanted and bla bla bla so basically I didn't end up quitting...I was so overwhelmed by the affirmation i never got to that part. But it was a first for me to take things to my boss and be like...here's how it is and here's how it needs to be!
the other first is probably not a first at all but it is the first time I can remember that I got so sick!
yes, projectile vomiting and all...
it was horrible
but I think I am over the worst of it...now I am just weak...very very weak...
so just thought you'd all like to know...or knew that you wouldn't but I thought I'd tell you anyway...

Birthday madness

ok, so I thought my birthday was over...but my cuz decided to really celebrate this weekend. She made alittle presentation with gifts of what I would wear on our 'birthday' date...with Rabina (my cuzin Crissy) the 'vanna white-look alike' unveiling each choice...
I had 3 doors to pick from...an evening of fantacy, drama or enchantment...pretty much I hoped the enchantment involved seeing enchanted...and so I picked door #3...
and yes, it was dinner and a movie...Enchanted here I come!!!!
among the gifts was a free make-over and hair 'do'...pampering began...
and in between all this Kath still managed to nurse her 3 month old and feed her 2 year old son dinner...super mom anyone????
then off we went to the movie...we we're going to do the movie...run home and then Kath would nurse Nikkila and we would go to dinner after that...
So the movie was very cute and I felt like I was Giselle as I stepped out of the theater and headed for the car...life is 'happily ever after' and 'true loves kiss' does conquer all....
and then the car wouldn't start. I thought about kissing the battery to start the car but I really don't want to end up with a toyota corola...
thankfully a coffee shop was next to the theater so we waited patiently for my uncle Ken to arrive to boost the battery...
then he came and we lined up the cars and everything and turned the key...and it started!
oh, my word!
Gong Show!
so now, I can't even start a car...lets just say I was feeling the fairytale feeling wear off quite fast.
but then we came home and I got to put to rock Nikkila to sleep and so I felt like I maybe am not a write off with everything...just mechanical things that help us get from point A to wherever else we want to go...
then I remembered, in Enchanted they either took Taxi's or rode a horse...sign me up fairytale

we never went to dinner...lets just say, we had already had a full evening and plenty of memories...one of the most memorable birthdays in a long time...

oh and Kath's husband Jonny is making a cheescake tomorrow...

PS I ate eggs salad for breakfast this morning and also had deviled eggs for lunch...It has been a family effort that I won't soon forget...egg it up!

pre-christmas

now, I know napolean dynamite is not a traditional christmas movie BUT, can I just say it made a great end to shopping and spaggetti at my auntie's house yesterday.
Me and my cuz needed to get some christmas gifts to justify our shopping but we don't often get to go together and Jonny (her husband) took Caleb and so it was just me and the cuz and we got a little carried away...
Anyway we got to my aunties and enjoyed the christmas tree and music and baby Nikkila...and then at supper they caught me up on their week...my aunt makes funeral sandwiches when someone dies at her church...ANYWAY, someone died and I guess they planned the funeral quite late...my auntie ahad already boiled the 8 dozen eggs for the sandwhiches when she got the heads up that someone had passed away.
funny part, this past week they have been eating eggs...8 dozen to be exact...the night before I came they had deviled eggs for supper...and I guess Jonny really took one for the team. He has been eating 4-6 egg salad sandwiches for breakfast every day! Conversation digressed to being all about his clogged arteries...but seriously funny.
I decided that even though this did not happen to me it was very blogworthy...
and I was wondering why they all wanted me to have a egg salad sandwich for lunch????
then we decided to watch napolean dynamite because we were on a laughing roll...
but first a starbies run...
so someone went to get the movie while 3 of us got the coffees and then I had the brilliant idea we should wait in the car-that was not running-for the movie people...after all how long does it take to rent a movie? especcially when you know which one you want...
so we sat in a -30 C car and waited...slowly the windows started to fogg up as we sat in the frozen car waiting...and waiting...I had my latte almost done by the time the movie people...who had done some christmas shopping!!!! came back...
but in the end-who opts to sit in the not running car in the winter...??????
it took Jonny about 5 minutes to unfogg the cars and then we headed home for the laughter fest...
hours and all the extra features later...
went to bed...a satsified pre-christmas day to be had on this persons part!

my big day...no, not that one...sheesh! people!..always assuming...

yeah, 26 came early...6am and then i ended up working till 6pm helping my sister babysit some kids...and by the time I got to sit down I was so tired I fell asleep...but it was the sleep of death and I think I got almost 12 hours and so that was amazing and wonderful...
facebook redeemed alot of the day too, cause I got about 20 lovely well wishings from friends and then I got good email action too...
who needs presents and a cake when you can get emails and facebook lovin????
I am pathetic I know. but happy and so it's OK...

unexpected discoveries....

so, have you ever just told God that he needed to give you a sign or speak into your life audibly or put up a neon sign outside your window or something-right now-cause you were that in need of a sign.
Well, this week I have been going thru a 'what am I doing with my life?' week. And I felt like I couldn't pull myself up and just devotions my way out of the issue! I needed some help. So I kinda prayed that God would use the Holy Spirit to speak truth into my life cause sometimes my internal pastor (you know that little voice that has to give pep talks, dating advise, and also nags at you to check your fly before you get on stage...) takes a holiday and 'he' needs supernatural convincing to get back to work and speak the truth into my wayword little heart.
Then came sunday. Today.
I got invited to the missions ministers house for lunch and he talked about God's sovereignty. I told him at this point I have no idea what comes next and instead of laughing it off with me or pitying me, he very sincerely said, "well, isn't it great that God does."
and although that shouldn't be a knew thought, since my internal pastor had left me for some time I just kinda sat back and let that one truth sink in.
God knows exactly what I'll be doing tomorrow, 5 years from now and ten after that too...
and all of a sudden the fact that I had no clue about tomorrow or the day after that doesn't look like such a big deal anymore.
He also shared about Psalm 139, where it talks about the fact that we can't even count how many thoughts God has towards us each day. And these thought are good thoughts, wonderful thoughts. So I'm thankful for missions ministers today. and I think with some more prayer and convinsing I might be able to get that internal pastor to keep helping me focus on the truth and not doubt in lies and confusion that He who began a good work...He already knows the end of the story.