starts tomorrow...am giving up coffee and movies...it's not that I am super spiritual, i am just trying to actually cut out all the time I spend not doing my homework...I have no idea if it will work or not, but that is what lent is all about I think, taking out a fluff or daily habit and trying to bring in a different way of going about your day. I like the whole pairing down aspect but am working on the whole adding something new and making a different choice rather than simply going along and thinking that it will change itself or something...
so lent it up...
also i forgot Alyssa, she is the librarian of our floor (that means she works in the library) she is a psychology major and hilarious, she would rather talk about yogurt than politics...and she hates red meat...
so let the 40 days begin...
Tuesday, 24 February 2009
Friday, 20 February 2009
All the girls
thought i'd just write about my floor since I really like the girls and am enjoying this whole go round with dorm life and cafeteria food...can i just say, thank the Lord for Ted, I luv it that someone cooks three meals a day and all I have to do is eat whats on my plate...tonight was ribs and cheesecake...seriously I am enjoying dorm food...kinda lame but my cooking consisted of...well, not cooking so this is like a party in my mouth...
Anyway, I live on the party, freshmen floor. We have slowly gotten to know eachother and I have roomates set up for the summer and fall already.
Courtney has been my friend from the beginning, she has early sings of MS and I guess it runs in her family. We work out together sometimes and basically hang the most I guess...she is my grey's partner:) None of her family is saved, but she is pretty amazing and grounded in her faith.
Lexi will be my roomate this summer, grew up in Holland and has life by the tale...for real...she is a smart cookie and I enjoy our deep thoughts and convo's....basically she reads philosophy books for fun (even though she's in psychology and doesn't have time to read other big intense books...yet there she is reading philosophy)
Jen is our RA, she just kinda stepped into the role this semester, because the previous girl had too heavy of a course load...Jen is the equivalent to 'princess prairie' yes, I know some of you know what that is...basically sometimes I see her working out when I get to the gym and I just want to sink thru the floor...there she is in lulu lemon and kicking butt with her ab routine and I am in my costco sweats and tee and thinking, I am so lame for noticing that she is wearing lulu lemon...anyway, she is super nice and just down to earth and fun, but yet perfect...basically I am intimidated but when am I ever not...
Nina, shared her testimony the first week i was here, is not a 'christian' and basically came right out and said that, was raised by her grandma and hasn't seen her mother (who has another family IN winnipeg) since she was 12 or something...Nina sent me a valentine...she is great.
Genvieve, the friendliest, most outgoing and very inclusive of people...she kinda hangs out with and knows everyone...I luv saying her name, I asked her if she minded me saying the whole thing, since most girls call her 'Jen' but she said she likes hearing her whole name too...and I like saying it...she is a ballerina and we go to St Margaret's together...
Rachelle is my next door neighbor, she is the 4.5 grade point average always studying and piano genius...her dad was diagnosed with rectal cancer and just had surgery for it this past week...apparently they are hopeful it was contained but the surgery was more complicated than originally thought...she didn't tell the floor about his cancer for 3 months...she is just shy and intense and quiet...she and I both like the Gaither's...her new fav song of theirs is "O luv that will not let me go...
Rachel is Rachelle's roomate (yeah, who planned that, seriously!) she is new this semester as well and brought her boyfriend Tanner...so he is always around, and he has the corniest sense of humor ever...it is so lame seriously, i am always impressed at how amazingly un funny he can be...but she laughs every time...it is so weird...don't get me wrong they are great, and Tanner is friendly but seriously, his jokes are soooo bad...
Josie is my other neighbor, she only makes friends with boys...they are in her room alot, hence we don't talk that much or know each other that well...but I've gotta say she is cool, cause she let one of the boys cut her hair...just on a whim...kinda crazy but I like that...
Judy, Lisa and Amanda are all never around that much, i think they have jobs...they are all very fun and Lisa has amazing hair...
Carolyn, Leah, Amanda (barbie) Denae and sometimes Jen (another Jen) are all the beautiful crazy and funny ones...sounds like they have it all but I think their friendships with eachother are fun to watch and they definitely feed off eachother and provide a much needed zest to the floor
Roccio is from mexico and this exotic beauty who sings and is in the musical west side story-the school is putting on in march...can't wait to go see her in it, she loves musicians, I think she liked this guy who is an organ player ( I know what your thinking but he looks like justin timberlake) she took lessons...and we all know what that means...taking organ lessons, yah, right...
last but not least is bethany, who shared her testimony last week...she is a preachers daughter and wants to go into social work but part of her testimony was how important rugby was to her life...that made me laugh...she is a sports girl and I guess rugby is her favorite...
so these are the people in my life...I am so happy to have gotten the chance to meet them and learn abit about who they are...so yeah, thats first floor poetker...
Anyway, I live on the party, freshmen floor. We have slowly gotten to know eachother and I have roomates set up for the summer and fall already.
Courtney has been my friend from the beginning, she has early sings of MS and I guess it runs in her family. We work out together sometimes and basically hang the most I guess...she is my grey's partner:) None of her family is saved, but she is pretty amazing and grounded in her faith.
Lexi will be my roomate this summer, grew up in Holland and has life by the tale...for real...she is a smart cookie and I enjoy our deep thoughts and convo's....basically she reads philosophy books for fun (even though she's in psychology and doesn't have time to read other big intense books...yet there she is reading philosophy)
Jen is our RA, she just kinda stepped into the role this semester, because the previous girl had too heavy of a course load...Jen is the equivalent to 'princess prairie' yes, I know some of you know what that is...basically sometimes I see her working out when I get to the gym and I just want to sink thru the floor...there she is in lulu lemon and kicking butt with her ab routine and I am in my costco sweats and tee and thinking, I am so lame for noticing that she is wearing lulu lemon...anyway, she is super nice and just down to earth and fun, but yet perfect...basically I am intimidated but when am I ever not...
Nina, shared her testimony the first week i was here, is not a 'christian' and basically came right out and said that, was raised by her grandma and hasn't seen her mother (who has another family IN winnipeg) since she was 12 or something...Nina sent me a valentine...she is great.
Genvieve, the friendliest, most outgoing and very inclusive of people...she kinda hangs out with and knows everyone...I luv saying her name, I asked her if she minded me saying the whole thing, since most girls call her 'Jen' but she said she likes hearing her whole name too...and I like saying it...she is a ballerina and we go to St Margaret's together...
Rachelle is my next door neighbor, she is the 4.5 grade point average always studying and piano genius...her dad was diagnosed with rectal cancer and just had surgery for it this past week...apparently they are hopeful it was contained but the surgery was more complicated than originally thought...she didn't tell the floor about his cancer for 3 months...she is just shy and intense and quiet...she and I both like the Gaither's...her new fav song of theirs is "O luv that will not let me go...
Rachel is Rachelle's roomate (yeah, who planned that, seriously!) she is new this semester as well and brought her boyfriend Tanner...so he is always around, and he has the corniest sense of humor ever...it is so lame seriously, i am always impressed at how amazingly un funny he can be...but she laughs every time...it is so weird...don't get me wrong they are great, and Tanner is friendly but seriously, his jokes are soooo bad...
Josie is my other neighbor, she only makes friends with boys...they are in her room alot, hence we don't talk that much or know each other that well...but I've gotta say she is cool, cause she let one of the boys cut her hair...just on a whim...kinda crazy but I like that...
Judy, Lisa and Amanda are all never around that much, i think they have jobs...they are all very fun and Lisa has amazing hair...
Carolyn, Leah, Amanda (barbie) Denae and sometimes Jen (another Jen) are all the beautiful crazy and funny ones...sounds like they have it all but I think their friendships with eachother are fun to watch and they definitely feed off eachother and provide a much needed zest to the floor
Roccio is from mexico and this exotic beauty who sings and is in the musical west side story-the school is putting on in march...can't wait to go see her in it, she loves musicians, I think she liked this guy who is an organ player ( I know what your thinking but he looks like justin timberlake) she took lessons...and we all know what that means...taking organ lessons, yah, right...
last but not least is bethany, who shared her testimony last week...she is a preachers daughter and wants to go into social work but part of her testimony was how important rugby was to her life...that made me laugh...she is a sports girl and I guess rugby is her favorite...
so these are the people in my life...I am so happy to have gotten the chance to meet them and learn abit about who they are...so yeah, thats first floor poetker...
Saturday, 14 February 2009
happy stinking valentines day
that was how I felt today when i woke up and checked my email account and got not one but two happy valentine wishes from not one but both my parents...seriously, your kidding right, I am single why would I want a valentine's day well wishing, but now I am going to a movie with my friend linds and so I am cool, and it is valentines day and I did wake up on the wrong side of the bed today and I am happy that not one but both my parents want me to feel special on this day...of all days...
so happy day,
oh happy, happy, happy day
so happy day,
oh happy, happy, happy day
Saturday, 7 February 2009
confession
i am going to skip church tomorrow....
justification...
3 midterms next week....
how do feel about next week...terror comes to mind
on a side note, my school is really into Evolutionary creationism...and here's my 'almost' problem with that....if we just evolved how are we any more special than the rest of creation ( the whole made in the image of God fixation)....and here's what my school essentially believes...we aren't...bottom line, in a nutshell, I truly see that my school thinks that humans are a part of a greater whole, a unique part but no more integral to the general story line than say...ummm a fern... In fact this week was the anniversary of Darwin's birth and also the publication of his book, can't remember the exact name at the moment but that apparently was why my bio prof was speaking in chapel this week....because it is a milestone week in scientific communities all over the world...they party apparently, and he said he was going to one...(I wondered what people who spend more time with virus, plants and specimens all thought a party involved and then I stopped wondering cause I have no clue)
Also in the school student union run paper, they ran an article completely shredding a providence seminary prof who argued that his brother (born with a severe disorder) who could not communicate and also could not use his arms or legs, gave value, beauty and meaning to the nuns who took care of him, because he was made in the 'image of God', serving him and the value of his life, being more important than deforestation issues or whale rights...
Anyway, I can totally deal with the fact that the earth was not created in a literal '6 days' but have had trouble grasping the whole...where do people fit into the whole scheme of things as far as hierarchy of importance (common, we all know that life is a big scale of measurement)....and then i start thinking I am a total 'lamb' and follower without any brain of my own cause as I look at 'man's greatest weakness it usually gets back to a pride issue...of thinking we are more important than eachother, of placing our needs above others, but what about grass and rocks and trees?????
Party line...God sent Jesus to save us from our sins, he wanted a relationship with us, but if God is big enough to save me and my chemical imbalanced-ness...than wouldn't He be big enough to make say, rocks and trees praise him too? It seems to come up alot in psalms and in Job, I was kinda reading over God's questions, my fav right now is "What is the way to the abode of light? And where does darkness reside? Can you take them to their places? Do you know the paths to their dwellings? seriously who puts light away...that is such crazy thought... I am just thinking about this lots cause it's a reality here at cmu...and anyway, one thing the textbook said about evolution is that it is sort of a hypothesis of how things relate to eachother, by their structure, function and right down to how scientists study each organisms specific DNA ...the word that stuck out to me is relationship...cause it seems to be a big word in christianese circles but used only between people...cause apparently we are the center of creation...we were wrong about the earth being the center of the universe...but how do we relate to the world around us, where do I fit in my ecosystem? basically all this has made me think of things from how little I respect grass to the amount of garbage I contribute to landfills and do I maintain stuff I already have or do I just throw it away and get something new...(the latter of which is so much what I do...it awful how much I pitch)...anyway, I am just thinking, so I thought I would think it all over the blob...thinking over...
and I am still going to skip church tomorrow...
justification...
3 midterms next week....
how do feel about next week...terror comes to mind
on a side note, my school is really into Evolutionary creationism...and here's my 'almost' problem with that....if we just evolved how are we any more special than the rest of creation ( the whole made in the image of God fixation)....and here's what my school essentially believes...we aren't...bottom line, in a nutshell, I truly see that my school thinks that humans are a part of a greater whole, a unique part but no more integral to the general story line than say...ummm a fern... In fact this week was the anniversary of Darwin's birth and also the publication of his book, can't remember the exact name at the moment but that apparently was why my bio prof was speaking in chapel this week....because it is a milestone week in scientific communities all over the world...they party apparently, and he said he was going to one...(I wondered what people who spend more time with virus, plants and specimens all thought a party involved and then I stopped wondering cause I have no clue)
Also in the school student union run paper, they ran an article completely shredding a providence seminary prof who argued that his brother (born with a severe disorder) who could not communicate and also could not use his arms or legs, gave value, beauty and meaning to the nuns who took care of him, because he was made in the 'image of God', serving him and the value of his life, being more important than deforestation issues or whale rights...
Anyway, I can totally deal with the fact that the earth was not created in a literal '6 days' but have had trouble grasping the whole...where do people fit into the whole scheme of things as far as hierarchy of importance (common, we all know that life is a big scale of measurement)....and then i start thinking I am a total 'lamb' and follower without any brain of my own cause as I look at 'man's greatest weakness it usually gets back to a pride issue...of thinking we are more important than eachother, of placing our needs above others, but what about grass and rocks and trees?????
Party line...God sent Jesus to save us from our sins, he wanted a relationship with us, but if God is big enough to save me and my chemical imbalanced-ness...than wouldn't He be big enough to make say, rocks and trees praise him too? It seems to come up alot in psalms and in Job, I was kinda reading over God's questions, my fav right now is "What is the way to the abode of light? And where does darkness reside? Can you take them to their places? Do you know the paths to their dwellings? seriously who puts light away...that is such crazy thought... I am just thinking about this lots cause it's a reality here at cmu...and anyway, one thing the textbook said about evolution is that it is sort of a hypothesis of how things relate to eachother, by their structure, function and right down to how scientists study each organisms specific DNA ...the word that stuck out to me is relationship...cause it seems to be a big word in christianese circles but used only between people...cause apparently we are the center of creation...we were wrong about the earth being the center of the universe...but how do we relate to the world around us, where do I fit in my ecosystem? basically all this has made me think of things from how little I respect grass to the amount of garbage I contribute to landfills and do I maintain stuff I already have or do I just throw it away and get something new...(the latter of which is so much what I do...it awful how much I pitch)...anyway, I am just thinking, so I thought I would think it all over the blob...thinking over...
and I am still going to skip church tomorrow...
Monday, 2 February 2009
Since I can't be Sparticus yet...
my prof forgot the microbiology quizzes at home today so i don't know my mark...yes, this is awkward young bio prof, whom I might add i am so over right now...the whole school is so in luv with him cause he is this evolutionary creationist and there was a whole write up in the school paper about him, he's sharing in chapel tomorrow, he is MR popular and all i really needed from him was my quizz...I felt like going up to him and making him feel very retarded( even though he has a PHD) for forgetting the quizzes at home...but I didn't and I am going to count that as my good deed for the day because right now there is not a whole lot of love here...nope, over it!
In other news I went to 7 lbs with a girl on my floor-yes I made a friend...family, have a little faith already....and I went downtown another night to go hear a band play at a pub and it was the wrong band so we left and went to moxies...i am a party animal what can I say
I ran into an MK with Janz team who of course knows everyone I know from the European part of my heritage...took 2 months, longest time of anonymity for me yet...
I got a job and earned $25 in tips for working 6 tables...because I was actually feeling the love that day, just not today...for money i can be quite loving...maybe if said bio prof would pay me for forgetting the quiz I would be more loving towards him...because lets face it, I know I am motivated by money more than i should be...
I am getting sick so i slept all day yesterday, and then was up all nite, so now I think I am feeling even worse today...but I still worked out and I will count that as my moment of discipline today...
also in micro I found out that deoderant, detergents, and antibacterial soap are building up toxins in my system and basically are a two edged sword...what they help they also inevitably kill....but Oxygen is killing me so really breathing is what gets us in the end...
highlight, it was -5 at one point this week and I was walking outside enjoying breathing...
lowlight, the whatever groundhog saw his shadow so i am condemned to more of this insanity of winter white madness...
the boom box in the washroom has over played poker face by lady gaga, so basically I feel like whenever that song comes on the radio anywhere i have to pee...my life is lame...
In other news I went to 7 lbs with a girl on my floor-yes I made a friend...family, have a little faith already....and I went downtown another night to go hear a band play at a pub and it was the wrong band so we left and went to moxies...i am a party animal what can I say
I ran into an MK with Janz team who of course knows everyone I know from the European part of my heritage...took 2 months, longest time of anonymity for me yet...
I got a job and earned $25 in tips for working 6 tables...because I was actually feeling the love that day, just not today...for money i can be quite loving...maybe if said bio prof would pay me for forgetting the quiz I would be more loving towards him...because lets face it, I know I am motivated by money more than i should be...
I am getting sick so i slept all day yesterday, and then was up all nite, so now I think I am feeling even worse today...but I still worked out and I will count that as my moment of discipline today...
also in micro I found out that deoderant, detergents, and antibacterial soap are building up toxins in my system and basically are a two edged sword...what they help they also inevitably kill....but Oxygen is killing me so really breathing is what gets us in the end...
highlight, it was -5 at one point this week and I was walking outside enjoying breathing...
lowlight, the whatever groundhog saw his shadow so i am condemned to more of this insanity of winter white madness...
the boom box in the washroom has over played poker face by lady gaga, so basically I feel like whenever that song comes on the radio anywhere i have to pee...my life is lame...
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